today, to me, was the big truth day. in many affairs. i have seen the light. somehow.
i should thank the big rain and the black sky. enlightened me. today, was a slack day. but, it was a mentally exhuasting for me. i ran 10000km, cycled 100000km and swam 1000000km in my mind. just so much has happened today, and i guess, it could be hard for someone weak in mental stamina to take. the 3 hours in the counselling room was rather tiring. seeing people talk about people, seeing how the word friendship actually means nothing to the world. i've never been an follower of the "friendship is crap" group. friendship means something to me. i dont really know how to say it in words. but, every inter-person relationship matters to me, in some way or another. some people say walking in the rain makes you think alot. and yes, while i was walking in the rain today, i did think,alot. if the world truly needs love, and compassion, why does the word friendship mean nothing, since it's just a combination of the 2? strange, i would say. if there was love, how long could it possibly last? if there was a specific deadline to everything, how far could relations be maintained for? all these indefinite answers, always seem to trample over my nerves. but sometimes, it may sound contradictory to say, but if you knew when everything was going to end, you would probably not start it. when that happens, we'll just be losing the chance to even discover, what could possibly be.

the rain went pitter patter,
and all i knew was that the road ahead will be long and cold.