some things.. often make me think. alot.
today, there was PE. i used to hate PE, until i realised it was the only period we could have fun together. strange isnt it, 16 year old sec 4s, yearning for a 1 hour break of pure fun. what made me feel really bad about today was that i couldnt do PE. people never understand what it feels like, until you are really part of it. the feeling was depressing, bitter, and...alone. somehow. everyone was within my sight. i could see them. and i could hear them. but i felt, like i was, a totally piece of substance, outside their world. strange. deep inside, i silently wished that i can do PE quickly, and run around like i used to without feeling anything. i am willing to run more 2.4!
perhaps, this is called appreciating what you had until you lost it. yea, i dreaded 2.4. and PE. but now... couldnt say the same.
perhaps, today didnt go as well. maybe, not as well as i wanted it to.
appreciation. a big word. but..when will i be able to appreciate things,when it is within my reach?